FINALLY!!! XD

I’ve been looking for a place that I can get this off my chest for YEARS. I truly think I have the strongest self hatred anyone has ever had. From the time I first started school as a child all the way to when I graduated I was fucked with A LOT for the way I looked. I used to be obese but I lost almost 100Ib two years ago. I was an easy target for bullies, and girls would just laugh in my face and tell me how fucking ugly I was on a daily basis. My life at home wasn’t any better. I grew up in a very old school southern home where “the man always has his way”. I would watch day in and day out of my own father torturing my mother both verbally and physically without any remorse. He never gave a fuck about the fact this was the mother of his children, all he cared about was himself. Although I’m still fairly young I’m SO FUCKING ANGRY. I can never understand why I had to go through this shit every day. Life seemed to be a never ending whirlpool of bullshit. Go to school, fight someone, go home, parents fight. My chaotic life has left me with extremely bad anxiety. I fear social interaction so much that I tremble in public. My love life is non-existent (Yeah big surprise lol). I’ve never had a girlfriend and since so many women have been so kind to tell me how fucking ugly I am, I dont think my chances are very high. Basically. I want to die….Yup. Fuck the world and all it’s inhabitants. Lets see how much longer I keep breathing. 😀