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lightsintheair

… figures

by lightsintheair 1/6/2015

written by lightsintheair

So.. I’m officially homeless homeless. I was already homeless but at least I had a motel room but now I don’t even have that. Of course this happens the day it snows and just as it’s about to be -12 outside. Negative twelve degrees fahrenheit. I don’t EVER remember it being that cold here. Adding insult to injury, my sciatica pain is off the charts today AND my period just started which is always extremely painful, to the point of throwing up and passing out.

I do love how pretty the snow is but even that is making me sad. It sucks being so completely alone.

I […]

1/6/2015 5 comments

Text Message to my Mother

by lightsintheair 1/5/2015

written by lightsintheair

I truly do not understand the point of my life.. for a long time now I haven’t been able to picture a future. Like I don’t have one, like I’m meant to die young. But I just recently found out that that is actually a symptom of my ptsd. Which was kind of disappointing because it doesn’t change the fact that I still don’t see my living past a few years and honestly I’d rather not. I don’t want to live anymore. I’ve been feeling like that for years and the more time goes on the more intense it feels. I do not see a […]

1/5/2015 11 comments