Today, I don’t know why, but I feel sadder than usual. My heart aches.
Sometimes I question, why am I still here? I feel like crawling under a rock and stay there. One time I feel okay, next time I feel completely sad. I’ve deactivated all of my social media, not like anybody actually cares. My friends and family won’t even notice my absence, Maybe after 6 months I guess. Nobody really cares about me.
I’m young, hurt and I have nobody.
There’s so much on my mind, nobody to talk to. I am emotionally drained. Why do I keep feeling sad? Am I not suppose to be happy? Guess I’m not good enough.
I haven’t been on SP in months. I thought I could be happy. I’m a single mom of a beautiful boy. I am wreck financially. We made it through 2 years, I guess we can make it some right? It’s hard and depressing. I’m up at 3:30 am because I can’t sleep, up crying. What am I supposed to do? I feel so horrible, and I feel like I’ve failed because I can’t provide for him like I want to. Bad news on top of that. My job will be laying off half of it’s employees in this month. I have tried applying […]
Emotionally drained.
Haven’t been here in a while. Things got better for a while but somehow i’m the same again. I feel so lifeless. Found something temporarily for my hurt but when that’s not enough, I’m not sure what I will turn to. I’ve been feeling down lately, feel like i don’t want to live anymore. I’ve turn to cutting to ease my pain, holds me about a day or so. First it was just my wrist then I’ve move to my face. It’s a bit uncomfortable because people always watch me like what happen to me. They often ask if someone is beating me. I work […]
I’ve been feeling unwanted lately. I feel like no one cares. Although I try to convince myself that I am all I need, it never works because it’s not true. I just need to know that someone cares, someone actually appreciates my existence. I want to wake up one day and actually be glad I am alive. Be glad that I am living. Sadly everyday feels the same for me. Feel like I’m begging people to be in my life. I’m begging for support. Seems like I’m begging for everything. It’s difficult having no one around. I’m always there for people, sad part is no […]
I’ve been down for too long. I want to meet new friends, do new things. I’m tired of feeling sad. I want to live, I know there’s more to life, I just need someone to show me. I need new friends that will motivate me, who will encourage me and friends that will look out for me. All I need is a listening ear.