I’m not sure if any one reads this stuff. I did notice there were not many comments on posts. But it feels like it would be good to let go. So here goes.
I really messed myself up. Gave myself cancer, a bad liver, weak kidneys, etc. I have been living in hell for two years battling this. I just don’t think I can any more. I want to stop fighting. Give in. let go. I want to seperate from this mortal machine that can house such pain and sorrow.
I don’t know if giving up qualifies as suicide, so i’m not sure I should be here. […]