school started a few days ago and i decided it will not affect me anymore. i decided i want to be better. i don’t want to cry for every single thing anymore, i don’t want to cry because i don’t have friends. but since i woke up a few hours ago i’m feeling so lonely and sad. and i feel stupid for writing here because my problems are stupid. but i don’t have anyone else. i can’t stand myself. i can’t be in my body anymore. i want this stupid feeling to stop..
lost.in.space
i can’t do this anymore. i feel so lonely and sad. i cry every day for no reason. school starts soon and it’s do hard. i don’t have friends. will this ever end? please, stop…
i’m done. i’m done trying to find a friend. i can’t do this anymore. what is wrong with me when people always live me in the end. it hurts so much. they just use me and then live. i just need someone to be there for me. is it that hard? of course. there is always someone better than me. always will be…
why do i feel bad again…
i am so tired of everything and i am feeling sick and i wanna throw up. and my head hurt so much. i had horrible headaches and now they are back. i just wanna cry and die. i need someone to talk to but i don’t have anyone. the only friend who i could talk to ditched me because now she has a boyfriend, a better person to talk to. i am so stupid and replaceable. i eant this all to stop. i am sorry…..
i don’t know what is wrong with me anymore. i was feeling better for few weeks but now i feel like shit again. and i gain some weight because my gluten intolerance and i can’t stand it. i knoe i am not fat but i feel fat and i just want to cut but i can’t because if i start again i won’t stop. and i just cry all the time. i hate myslef because i am ugly and my appearance, poor body image are holding me back. i hope i will die soon.
for a year and a half i was in black hole. trying to do something with my life and hating myself with all my heart but then my mom saw my scars and i planned to kill myself but i couldn’t. coward.. i started prrtending that everything is okay with me and for a few months i was okay. not happy but okay. i woke up every day and i was okay with myself. i even met someone but it fadeed away because i am stupid. i was okay with my ugly face. it is a great feeling when you wake up and don’t have […]