Tonight is the night. I’ve felt no reason to go to work, no reason to commit to something for more than an hour. Once my father goes to bed I will too. I cannot keep doing this. I’m so sorry.
LostLeo
I’ve been sitting here since Thursday. In this same place on the couch I haven’t moved. Smoking cigarettes like they’re going out of style and drinking booze as if it’s my last time (it should be). I screwed up. Bad and I mean bad. My girlfriend moved out due to my alcoholism as well as being controlling. It never occurred to me that I was so controlling until the end, and why? Why would I put down the person that I loved the most down just to have her leave? I’m a monster. Something in my head seemed to break loose and I lost it. […]
For the last month or so I’ve been depressed enough to have lost my appetite. Of course it’s not healthy and not having that nutrition makes me generally upset. I try and force feed myself but that usually ends up in only having a few bites. Sadly the only thing that I’ve found to work is to get a buzz going with or without weed! Sure that’s not very healthy either and quite costly mind you. Has anyone felt like myself and have any tips?