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What the hell is going on ?

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I don’t know what’s happening with my feelings. I don’t feel lonely, but started to hate everyone . I imagine bad things about people around me. It makes me feel gloomy. Then I want to stop that kind of thoughts, so I start thinking about suicide. I don’t want to hurt anyone. I just want to disappear and forget my current life.

Every day I try to say positive words to me that everything will be okay. My friends will back, I will forget  the pain I have,  I will be happy etc.. However, I started do not believe. I don’t know how much time I’m […]

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How people can live so…

by Lilly
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Tired of life.  I see many people who don’t want to live, but they somehow look strong. They are moving  around and trying to  find something attractive. Maybe I should try to find the way which may help me to  understand  that life isn’t so bad as it looks. Maybe I will be able to forget how lonely I am… that feeling sucks. Especially  when there are  so many people around me..

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Half dead, half alive

by Lilly
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My story began many years ago when I was a naive kid who was  bullied. Every time I tried to be perfect, friendly with people and never say any bad word. I trusted people and they trusted me because they knew I will never disappoint them. However, they disappointed me. It was one of the reasons why I became a potential liar. Honestly, I didn’t know that many years, even if  some people asked me to stop doing that shit. I didn’t want to be antisocial, so I tried keep talking with people without opening my heart. Sometimes I lied, sometimes I didn’t tell the […]

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