I miss you, Aggie
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being suicidal and depressed already sucks. and dealing with homophobia in the workplace hurts. Like, I get it. I’m doing this work to pay off the small debt I have, there’s greasy people where I am. It comes with perks. But there’s people that won’t put up with it, I noticed. They had my back even though I’m super quiet. I can’t imagine life in Russia and its bigotry. I feel inspired by the one’s speaking against it. It’s so hard being a scapegoat alone, my goodness, prison/protests? Strong people out there – it keeps me going this New Years.
When I was a teenager, two people showed up in a car and tried beating the hell out of me for being gay.
I knew who they were. I didn’t see it coming. It was really scary, horrifying, traumatic. There’s more to the story, but I don’t want to get into it. That shit went on all summer.
I feel like since then, I’ve come a long way. I’m stronger, emotionally. More resilient to hatred.
…I just feel like my past makes me put up walls and shut out everyone around me. I miss out on a lot because of that, maybe.
facing bits of homophobia from my family this Christmas, I’ll join the rest and admit that this flag brings me solace. I found a church that accepts gay marriage. My sister goes there. (I live hours away from my family, which more solace) Now… if only I could pull my sister from the constellations, that is, her personal life, and reconnect…that would be even more wholesome… because then I could join her and her family for church service, instead of just showing up new haha 😛 it’s been what, five years? Can hardly get a phone […]
Happy Holidays, all on SP. You’re all very strong, with rich hearts. I love how we stick together. Stay warm out there. xx
and to those that are without their families, stay warmer. I’m there with you in that way.
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