Life is unbearably painful. I’m tired of feeling this way. Why am I pretending there’s a better world out there? There isn’t. I really believed in that message. The hope thing. I tried harder than ever. I felt kind of happy for a little bit. I can’t get over what happened in January. The things that were said. I’m in so much pain. And you know, I guess it’s true. I’m a loser. Garbage. This journey isn’t going anywhere. It’s going to feel like this for the rest of my life. There will never be friends. No social support. It will always be complete isolation. […]