Does anyone else get suicidal while drunk? I think it’s the only way I’ll have the guts to do it. Don’t have anyone to talk to cause I feel guilty enough for ruining other people’s evenings already. I dunno, it sucks. I just want to get drunk without fucking things up for everybody else, feel guilty, then want to off myself to appease the guilt. Why can’t I have fun like everybody else?
Before this post is removed, I hope someone can help me find the information I need. For the SP Moderator, whenever you swoop in, technically I am writing about my suicide story. It just hasn’t happened yet. Foreshadowing technically counts as a literary technique. I’m writing the introduction to my story. If Shakespeare was allowed to give away the ending of Romeo and Juliet, why can’t I?
Of all the methods I have (not efficiently) researched and heard discussed, the one most obtainable and suitable for me would be a bullet through the brain. However, as an incompetent, sheltered teenager, I don’t even know how to buy a gun. Before Congress has a chance to change the rules, how can I go about purchasing one? No, I’m not homicidal or psychopathic, so don’t worry about that. I just want to put MYSELF out of my misery. Since age matters, know I need whatever an 18-year-old can receive. As far as I’ve read, official background checks take mental health into account, but supposedly gun shows have loopholes. Do I need a gun-savvy friend to get in or can I find one solo and bring the cash? If I went through a licensed dealership, how in-depth are those background checks? If I went to a mental hospital when I was fourteen, can the dealer find those records or are they sealed since I was a minor?
Any info is appreciated.