Today was the first day in a while that I felt happy. I think that’s a good sign. I feel better. I don’t feel the need to harm myself. I like this feeling.
Last year I had a bf for 4 months. Not exactly the longest relationship, but it was still pretty long. We had 4 classes together and lunch. His name was John. He was my everything and I was his. We were the couple that everyone thought was cute and would last forever you know? Of course it didn’t. We ended really bad. I tried to be friends with him but I miss him, and I think I still like him. He doesn’t want anything to do with me. He’s embarrassed to talk to me. Why does it hurt so much?
I used to have the bestest friend ever. You know, like the one that lives in your neighborhood and you guys hangout everyday. This year, she started hanging out with one of my old friends named Jenna. I mean, I thought we could all hangout together bc that would be fun! But no, and I would realize too late that I was being replaced.
One day during a hurricane, me and my bestest friend went to my grandfathers house during a storm. Because of the storm, the power was out at both of our houses (so I took her to go to my grandfathers house to […]
I’m a very sensitive person. I just don’t understand how people can be so mean to people they don’t even know. Or being mean in general. You all know the saying “sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me.” But they do hurt, they hurt more then sticks and stones. I don’t know how to stop the words from entering my mind even after pushing them out. Words like; annoying, *****, lazy, fat, ****, mean, slut, whore. I have been called every single one. I tried to stop cutting but I cant.
I don’t have anyone to talk to. My sister […]
Everybody lies, right? Like we all make mistakes and tell lies once in a while. But I seriously messed up. When I was really suicidal, my sister helped me threw it. She didn’t know how I wanted to die, but she became my bestfriend. The other day, we got into a huge fight, and I told my parents that she had sex and did drugs. and they confronted her and I lied and said that I didn’t tell them. But I did. And I think she knew I did too. She hasn’t talked to me for a while and without her I’m afraid that I […]
You wouldn’t think that the girl that laughs the loudest has the most trouble. She’s secretly so unhappy sometimes. Like a dam breaking emotions would take control of her and make her be unable to break free. This doesn’t happen all the time. She does have some friends that are there for her. Friends that make her laugh and smile, but they don’t know. Nobody knows.
She’s quite pretty actually, a small cute nose, nice lips and big brown eyes. Her body says more, a curvy figure. She would seem perfect to those who just meet her. While she thinks that she is the fattest thing that […]