It’s funny, I guess it isn’t really “funny” per se-but I’ve contemplated suicide since I was old enough to realize that you just keep having to go on and be miserable IF you don’t stop it yourself. Another “funny” thing-I would never have done it, because I didn’t want to hurt my mom. And now-I’m married! And now-I don’t want to hurt my husband. How does one find enough justification to do this when it will hurt the ones they love? It’s the only thing I can think of to stop my pain. But I feel so very selfish.