It’s funny, I guess it isn’t really “funny” per se-but I’ve contemplated suicide since I was old enough to realize that you just keep having to go on and be miserable IF you don’t stop it yourself. Another “funny” thing-I would never have done it, because I didn’t want to hurt my mom. And now-I’m married! And now-I don’t want to hurt my husband. How does one find enough justification to do this when it will hurt the ones they love? It’s the only thing I can think of to stop my pain. But I feel so very selfish.
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I guess you have two options then… you can find any justification you want to commit suicide and be selfish and devastate the ones you love. Cuz if you’re commited enough to it then you are indeed gonna find any excuse/justification. Or you can spend the time to try to talk to someone about it. I mean you are married; he must give you some pleasure/happiness?
Hi married. Having someone who loves you does complicate matters. U don’t want to give up when they won’t give up on you. I remember the night I asked my wife if she would forgive me, and she said, “no!” I don’t want to leave her, but if she knew the darkness I feel in my heart maybe she would understand. I can’t bring myself to cause her that pain, I guess the guilt is stronger than the pain. I just look forward to the day the pain consumes me, and I lose my mind and control.
We do what we can as long as we can.