I’m constantly thinking of killing myself. I still don’t know why. And I feel like crying, but I can’t and I don’t know why that is either.
I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I feel okay, I’m not insanely sad all the time, but I just really really want to kill myself. I don’t know why, but I just do.
There’s this bridge in the town that I live in that a lot of people have committed suicide by jumping off of. They put suicide barriers up but I noticed there was a hole in them and I could get through it to jump if I wanted to. I feel like jumping would be an easy way to go so I’ll probabay do that soon.
If I don’t feel better by 2 months or so I’m going to kill myself.
I haven’t cut myself for like 2 months, but I really want to right now. I just need to feel the pain.
I really need to talk to somebody.
I feel so bad. I feel empty. I don’t know what the purpose for me living is. The only reason I haven’t killed myself yet is because my parents would be very sad if I died. But why should I just keep living because of them? After all, they’re part of the reason I want to kill myself. I just don’t know what to do.
I don’t know what I’m supposed to do about it. Everything feels like it’s falling apart.
I really want to just end it all. Why not?
Everybody always says that’s committting suicide is the wrong thing to do, but what if it’s actually the right thing to do? What if that’s how we make it to somewhere good after we die? Maybe after people die naturally they don’t go to heaven or wherever you go because they didn’t kill themselves? I’m just saying this and I know some people might disagree, but just think about it. What if suicude is the right choice?
Everyday I think about killing myself and I think I’m coming closer to doing it. But maybe it’s what I’m supposed to do. I’ll at least be happy.
I feel nothing. But at the same time I feel everything. Basically all I can think about is committing suicide. I just want to disappear. I want it all to be gone. I don’t understand what goes on in my mind. I want to be gone. I’m sorry mom and dad. I know I said I would never kill myself I just have to. You want me to be happy and by doing this I will be happy. It’s not your fault. I know I should be greatful for all that I have and I am but all those things don’t make me not want […]