When I’m close to hate everything, especially my parents to let me experience this, I have to remind myself that this is just random evolutionary world. People don’t have the power to solve anything, because they are just products of their genes. They pop children like flies pop maggots. Some may die or suffer, but who cares. I’m here, because of evolution and because my parents had sex, there is not much else to it. Who would really care about anything else. And who can you really hate in this random world? Parents who are just product of their parents? Or governments who are just […]
I don’t know if this post will be of any use by SP community. It’s not meant for people with personality disorders, poor relationships or traumas from youth. Its kind of thing I would write to myself 10 years into the past or as my parent. It will mostly help for first episode people. Hope it helps for any of you or people you know. I know there are many kinds of depression and different people may have different ways to overcome it, take it as an inspiration.
There are people who will never develop true depression, no matter what they do. However there are people […]
Ok, this is my last post for this time, I promise. Even as I’m super sick of psychiatrists, psychologists and healers etc. – one did really good job in helping me to understand deeper what happened in my life and why I’m just lying in my bed most of the time.
Its really refreshing after years of just drowning in this “medical system” to hear something fresh and inovative. The woman didn’t look much interesting from the outside, more likely some average esoteric bullshit, but she was able to read me like an open book. Not even she spoke about things that actually mattered for me, […]
Well, I had a very nice fulfiling life till my 19 age. Then I got pretty sick depression (I know the causes to some degree). Went on some AD and tried to heal myself, I failed (I know the causes as well), but still had somewhat interesting life. Then I got worse (known causes), went on more AD, lost control over my healing process and was more traumatized, but still managed to do something with my life. Then my diagnosis began to change more and more and being more subtle changing my personality – loosing emotions, motivation, then executivity, imagination, even reason and daily functioning.
I can […]
When I think about it from time to time, when Im not in complete shit, I can argue there can be a good suicide.
Of course, natural for people is to try to live to an endless extend, but we still die eventually. To imagine suicide or some kind of violent death, we feel strong negative emotions naturaly, but I think its not mandatory.
The key is understanding. With true understanding, when your view of life is how you actually live(d) it, there comes some kind of calmness. We all are just figures in this super complex world of birth and death and even with modern science, […]
I feel so different from anybody. On one side, u have “normal” people who just do their things. On the other side you have broken people doing broken things. I feel like i’m quite normal but my life (brain) is just so broken.
I had great childhood and adolescence. Not super perfect but wouldnt change with anyone else. I did a lot of sports, had a lot of friends, doing music, had a girlfriend etc. – like very fullfilling life. Then strong depression came (and now I know why) nad I tried to do my best with it, then chronic depression came and I tried my […]
My life is more or less over. I don’t want to write my story, my brain just stopped working altogether.
From what I tried to discover, there is life after death, we just cant know what it is. So the only thing is belief that the next life will be better, nothing else. Dont panic.