It’s weird to know yourself so well, and still have no clue who you are or what to expect from yourself. I know what I do is wrong. I know I have a drinking problem, a depression problem, and I know my past has given me issues with men. I start dating them, sleeping with them, and only then do I realize I have no feelings for them and break their heart after leading them on for a month or two. The problem is that none of them understand me and the shit I deal with.
I’m in therapy, I’ve been on pills, nothing’s ever […]
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Please understand
This isn’t just goodbye
This is I can’t stand you
This is where the road crashed into the ocean
It rises all around me
And now we’re barely breathing
A thousand faces we’ll choose to ignore
Curse my enemies forever
Let’s slit our wrists and burn down something beautiful
This desperation leaves me overjoyed
With fading lights that lead us past the lives that we destroy
I listen to you cry
A cry for less attention
But both my hands are tied
And I’m pushed into the deep end
I listen to you talk but talk is cheap
And my mouth is filled with […]
For the past 3 months, I haven’t had a night where I haven’t either had a migraine or a severe panic attack.
I’m not dealing with another 7 days of this.
This will be my third post, and my final one as well.
Everything started when my mom remarried. I was such a happy kid. I liked her new husband. Until he changed completely. As soon as they got married. That always seems to be the case. He ruined me. He beat me almost daily. I went to school with black eyes often. Luckily people believed that I was just clumsy. I told my dad that this was happening, and begged him to get full custody so I could escape the hell house. All he had to say was “I don’t want to start a war with your mother…” Thanks dad. I guess it’s better that I get […]
I wore it every day. He gave it to me and said as long as I wore it, we’ll be together. Even if we aren’t. He was the greatest thing in my life. We were in love. That’s the first and only time in my life that I recall ever being happy. And it was ripped away when we fought. We fought about a scar. And he ripped out my heart through a text. We got back together, though. And we were happy again. Until I went across the country for a week to visit my brother. He found someone else. They’re happy. I still […]