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michelle.m

Not doing well

by michelle.m 10/2/2014

written by michelle.m

I’m sick. Had an appt. with the surgeon today. Blah blah blah, more tests, blah blah blah.

Just ended a 10 year relationship. He didn’t want to marry me. Or live with me. Or commit to me in any meaningful way.

I want to feel better. I want to go on with my life and get medical treatment and be okay. I really do.

I just don’t think I have the strength to survive the pain I’ll have to go thru to come out the other end. Mental pain physical pain. All of it.

Maybe I’m a coward. Maybe I’m just broken and exhausted.

Suicide […]

10/2/2014 8 comments

Destroyed

by michelle.m 9/28/2014

written by michelle.m

I gave my heart to a man. Completely. Irreparably. For 10 years. He said he loved me. He said I was his best friend and soul mate. He promised to marry me. He promised a life together.

I sacrificed a lot to be with him. My best friend hated him so I distanced myself from her. I waited a long time for him to keep his promises.

I’m sick now, since June. Have missed so much work. Am in a lot of pain. I need stomach surgery. All my doctors suck. They’re in no hurry to fix me. They want tests and more tests. […]

9/28/2014 12 comments