My relationship broke down Halloween 2021. It has been a couple of months now and my state of mind has plummeted. We occasionally write to one another and I am trying to get her back. I know she will be in a park in Manchester end of this month. I am going to confront her and propose to her. Otherwise, I am off to Mexico to spend three months spending all the money I have or I might visit Canada one last time. I was once married to a Canadian woman. Maybe I should find another? In Mexico, I am going to get some medication used for sick animals, just like me, and smuggle it into the UK. I will then scale my love’s house and get in through the window and wait for her. I will wait until she is asleep and subdue her and tell her I am killing myself. I will open a bottle of expensive champagne, offer her a glass, listen to some music. She will be subdued so I can then take the medication I bought from Mexico and die by her side. I will call the police before telling them there is an odd looking note on the door. The note will say there is a woman upstairs that needs attention. I will not mention the medication I took and it should give me enough time to kill myself whilst I am holding her. I don’t want to physically harm her. I just want to be by her side when I die. She will, over time get over it. I will be free.