Its the sadness and anxiety I can’t overcome. The overwhelming feeling of loss and abandonment. I don’t know what to do. All I want to do is eat a gun. I want him back so bad but he still needs time to think things through. It’s hard not kissing him and touching him. He doesn’t want me. I feel so empty so defeated. It’s a pain I’ve never felt before and I don’t recommend it to anyone. It’s like a piece of me has been taken away and no matter how hard I try I can’t get it back. It sucks. I feel like shit. […]
I go to bed thinking of him, I wake up thinking of him and it hurts so bad. I have to deal with my kids and put a happy face and try to do the mundane things I do. I want to scream all the time. I meltdown all the time. Ativan doesn’t even help. I’m a mess a pile of *** as he calls it. “I better get my shit together and push through this with a smile on your face” He says. Bullshit….I can’t even blink with out my heart hurting. Give him his space everybody tells me. Meanwhile I have no one […]
It’s the pain I feel of every minute of every day. The not knowing. I don’t want to feel the ache in my heart anymore it’s killing me. I cry all the time and I breakdown and there is no one to talk to. It’s like living in purgatory. I know killing myself is the cowardly thing to do but I just don’t know how to kill this pain I have. I just want the darkness to take me, take me where there is no more pain. I feel like I’m dying a slow death but I wish it would just hurry up and take […]
She talks to angels, they call her out by her name.
She paints her eyes as black as night
She pulls those shades down tight
There’s a smile when the pain comes.
The pain gonna make everything alright.
She Talks to Angels they all call her by her name……..
I’m a piece of shit. I talked to an ex boyfriend via text for a month and didn’t tell my husband. He found out and now he has moved out to straighten things out in his head. He says he wants to work on getting back together but I can’t stand the pain of him being gone. Of him not holding or kissing me. It hurts and all I want to do is die. I have no one to talk to and I feel hopeless I don’t know what to do. It hurts so bad I just want to take a bottle of Ativan and […]