I am so done letting people use my intellect and love to their own adavantage. I wouldn’t be here without my husband, because he realized using me wouldn’t get me. Even though he did it in the past. Everyone I let in is just using me. People who get used use me. I’m a human rag doll. I hate being alive. Humanity is hopelessly lost and our earth is ruined. I can’t go out alone and I know that. So I’ll wait. And I’ll save and repair the strong and true ones. But in the end, I will decide when I leave this Earth. The […]
I can’t do anything without falling into this pit. I don’t have anywhere to go. My boyfriend is always annoyed with my high energy and me annoyed with his avid inattentiveness. I don’t truly have a home. There’s no where I want to be or anything I want to do. I was excited for school but even that got ruined. I can’t get a grip. My depression isn’t even bad right now, and I still have this drowning feeling. I wish I would soak into the ground and disappear. I hate living it’s sad and pointless. I’m always fighting just to be closer to death. […]
I’m really frustrated not having anyone to talk to. Obviously there are physical people here, but no one is listening to me. They aren’t like me they don’t get it, but they’ll say they do. I want to solve my issues and make waves. I don’t want to sit here and assimilate with the most ignorant and oblivious of creations. People aren’t good for the most part so why would I want to be like everyone and try to calm down and blend in. I need people that will accept my personality and my viewpoints because I’m tired of everyone ganging up just to tell […]
They are selfish for making me stay here
I don’t want to be here anymore. They say they love me, but why would you put someone you love through this much torture? I hate waking up every day and doing this bullshit. Ok I’m on medication but it’s not going to help me. It’s supposed to work and it’s not. I can switch a hundred times and it won’t work. I shouldn’t be forced to take medicine I don’t want to take and to live a life I don’t want to live. No one this sad should be allowed to be born. They say they’ll be […]
No matter what I do or how hard I try my view of the world will never change. And that’s what causes the depression in the first place. I think that living is pointless. I think everything we do leads to nothing and that everyone leads to nothing. That’s what I think about every time I open my eyes. My boyfriend is normal though. He can wake up everyday and find a reason to fight through, it’s simple for him. He can focus on living his life and not on living in general. All I like to do is help people. But how can I […]