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today i watched a tv program that made me think…

it was about this girl who’s heart was broken… she wanted a cure. so she went to this guy, and made a deal. she traded a piece of her hair for a potion that would make her forget her loved one that broke her heart. she ended up drinking that potion the day her lover came back looking for her… the rumours spread that he was looking for her, but of corse she didn’t remember him. so this news meant nothing to her.

then the show ended… but I’ve recently had my heart broken.. I’m not […]

it seems i never belong anywhere, not with my friends.. not even on this site.. not on this world.. not in my family… i don’t know what do to… i think I’m done…

all i want to do is go to sleep and never wake up.. stay in my dream land… its way better then here…

i believe we create our own heaven and hell… and you enter them lots. we go into our hell, but some how find a way out and end up in our heaven.. we make it as we live our life… hopefully this make sense. but right now i know I’m in […]

i thought this website would help me.. and some days it does.. but people can still judge you! and i hate it… people judge me a lot already.. i don’t need anyone else to judge me.. when they don’t even know my story…

I’m broke and i need someone to fix me… anyone..

-Morgan

Yesterday:

MY BOYFRIENDS BACK!!! (read my other posts) he had to sell his iPod but his friend gave it back to him and he said he just won’t tell his parents i get to talk to him tonight if i stay up till 11:30pm.. cuz thats the time he gets home from work.. I’ve missed him to much!

i hope i don’t fall sleep early tonight!!! any tips on how to stay awake????

Thanks,
Morgan

Today:

I’m kinda having a bad day… last night i stayed up till 1:30am and he never talked to me… i waited….

this morning i had to go to school for an hour becuz […]

well if you’ve read my other post “i hurt to much” you’d know me and my boyfriend broke up… if u haven’t read it please do because i don’t want to explain it again… i feel nothing but pain. al day… all i want to do is sleep. not eat, not shower, not smile…. my parents noticed somethings up so of corse they have asked if I’m ok.. i lie and say I’m just tired… i can’t talk to them about this.. they didn’t even know i have a boyfriend…

god why must a broken heart cost so much pain!!!!!!!
i want to die. but i […]

last night my boyfriend that i realized i was madly in love with dumped me becuz since it was long distance we could only talk through this app on our iPod touches.. his parents are forcing him to sell his so we can no longer talk so he broke up with me…. I’ve never hurt so much. please… i want the pain to go away!!!!!!!!

my eyes are swollen and red from crying. i don’t want to do anything. i don’t want to eat, shower, move…or sleep becuz i know i will dream of him whether its a nightmare or a good dream… i just can’t […]

well I’ve decided i want to get better. so i told my mom and asked her if i couldnt go to therapy. to be honest im loking forward to it. not sure if thats a good thing or not…

but i still feel “not myself” around my friends and family. the only i am myself around is basically my boyfriend, which is good. he seems to be the only one that can make me really smile and laugh 🙂

my friend still isent talking to me, im pretty sure its becuz of my secret but im not sure yet. i wanto to talk to her, […]

i told my mom about how i feel…. i made her cry and now feel a bit worse hopefully it gets better…. i may be going to therapy after xmas.. in a way I’m kinda looking forward to it….. hopefully it helps since only my boyfriend and kinda family are there for me

well. the other day i decided to tell my friend my biggest secret..she didnt take it so well and now wont talk to me… also hardly any of my friends are trying to help me with my depression. my one friend said she doesnt want to be around the “negative energy” so i basically only have my boyfriend. and im happy all the time when i talk to him, but when i dont talk to him im so sad i feel like falling asleep and never waking up. i dont know what to do… in a way i want to go to therapy.. but then […]

kay, so…i have a pretty good life, well not as bad as others. i do cut becuz i think thats the only way to make the pain go away, to never works though, and i can’t stop. when I’m so sad i can’t think clearly.
this weekend i was so sad and I’m not even sure why, so i decided to go for a walk. i walked all the way to this one bridge by my house. i don’t know what came over my but i ended up standing on it. and a part of me wanted to jump but the other half couldn’t do […]