MrSebastior

Has anyone heard from nat?  getting quite worried

Great success, i went from doing soo many pills to alcoholic, i never drank ’till i was 18 (i’m 18 now) ’cause of dad, he’s an alcoholic, i see why now, although i’d go back to pills without a doubt if i could, i been sober for 7 or 8 weeks tomorrow, from pills that is. I might stop with alcohol some time, prolly not, but i’m never ever gonna stop smoking weed.

The pills i did were mainly benzos, and also codeine. I haven’t done codeine since i overdosed on codeine and paracetamol, prolly almost died, idk really. Didn’t feel too well for a week. […]

Is here anyone that has failed suicide here? I’m not talking about changing your mind, I mean if someone saved you or something went wrong.

Would you comment your experience and tell me/us what happened, what you felt etc

And if you need someone to talk to, email me, no matter what it’s about, even if you feel stupid, it’s still serious and i’d like to try and help

MrSebastior at gmail dot com

I need someone to talk to about Barbiturates. I don’t know if anyone here knows, but I’m very interested in drugs, I’m well educated about a lot of drugs, it’s one of my few interesting interests, which a lot of people look down on, frankly i couldn’t care less.

If you’re educated on barbs and willing to talk to me and answer questions, please comment and I’ll give you my email add.

Thanks in advance.

Okay so apparently my first post was inappropriate for some reason, so I’ll just try again.

If anyone needs someone to talk to, feel free to email me no matter what you need help with or what you wanna talk about, my email will be at the end of this post. Even if you feel there is no hope in life for you, there still is, trust me, you don’t have to walk down the rout I and many other people did, I got help and now I’m not suicidal anymore, I’m still depressed from time to time due to chemical imbalance in the brain and […]

Really, what happened? It used to be much better last year, people commented and chatted more and all that, what penned?

How many people here are gonna do ligature asphyxiation?

I’d like to talk about it with someone

mrsebastior @ gmail . com

I’m sorry for leaving you.

I just couldn’t handle this phobia.

I ain’t placing any blame.

I just wasn’t happy.

Only when i smoked weed and/or did zopiclone, played guitar and talked to george.

When i smoked weed and/or took zopiclone, playing guitar feels kinda spiritual, like i’m connecting with the drugs, guitar and music.

But when i come down from the drugs i’m just right back to square one.

Depression. Because of my phobia. And i just sit and cry, wishing i’d die

I was actually gonna go months ago, but i stayed, for you mum, and george, who’s my best friend.

The only true friend and person i ever talked to. I’m […]

I can’t live with this phobia any longer

I told you all it’s what made me suicidal and i wanted to get it sorted out before we started with the ocd and anxiety therapy. Which we didn’t ’cause my therapists didn’t listen to me.

I ain’t placing any blame even if it sounds like it.

I’m sorry for leaving you mum, don’t think i didn’t appreciate all you did for me.

I’m sorry i never showed how much i love you and how much you meant to me.

We had our ups and downs, i still love you though, no matter what.

And dad, i don’t really know what to say, […]

Just came down from zopiclone, missed them sooo much, only have 2 left which i gotta save for suicide, since i love being high, i wanna be high when i die.

My doctor said he won’t prescribe me with anymore zopiclone this year, so i’m guessing he either means next year literally or next year as in my age, i’m 17.

So i’m gonna call them (the place where he works at) next tuesday or so, next year, and see if they can fill my prescription, if they can’t and i gotta be 18 for them to refill it or whatever, i’ll most likely off myself that […]

i miss pills so fucking much, they made me feel so motivated, euphoric and i just loved them so much

and i also miss weed, no dealer available and no money, thing is though with weed, i’ve started feeling like it makes me think about things that make me nervous and shit, idk how to explain it but like, i was gonna take a piss test, a few times actually, never did them though, luckily, but it reminds me of that when i’m high and i can’t enjoy the high, but with the pills i just didn’t think of bad things that made me wanna die […]

Has anyone here had a near death experience? I’m not talking about where you almost got hit by a car or no shit like that, i mean an actual NDE, where you’re practically dead and then for some reason you start living again.

If you’ve had an NDE, what was it like? and what happened when you ‘died’? like, how did it happen

So this time i didn’t chicken out like all the other times, why didn’t i go through with it then?

well, for some reason i couldn’t fucking get it right and then my mother called me, then dad and granny, so i gave it one last chance, didn’t work, so i went back home, but i was so fucking high on sleeping pills i can’t remember what happened, i just remember i couldn’t walk straight.

Man, time goes by so fucking fast when you’re on sleeping pills, i started taking them at 12pm, and i was gonna be at the location at 1-1:30pm, but i got there […]

Quote from this thing i wrote about my beliefs on my computer:

‘Sometimes i’m wondering though, if this is all just an alien experiment and everyone else is in on it and i’m the only ‘human’ here. Maybe i created this world with my mind and it’s all in my head, maybe i’ll find out when i’m dead.’

Goodbye

Anyone get the hint?

is he dead?

i ain’t been on sp for a while and i’m trying to find some posts, can’t find anything though, so can someone tell me biscuit is dead or not?

Does anyone else here feel like your life is just an alien experiment and everyone else is in on it? so you’re the only real human here.

Or that you created this world with your mind, and it’s all in your head.

Thinking of things like that makes me feel alone, and i never really feel alone even thought i spend most of my time by myself.

Maybe life really is an alien experiment, maybe i’ll find out when i’m dead. It’s kinda scary thinking about it, well not scary, idk, but yeah, does anyone else feel this way?

If anyone here has a fair amount of knowledge about zopiclone, please hit me up, i have some questions i wanna ask, my address: MrSebastior@gmail.com