Either way it goes love sucks. Either way it goes life sucks.
Trying to think what it is I normally see.. same ol same ol. Why expect anything new to happen. Closed in and I don’t make friends so… whatever.
I Reek With Truth
If I were to destroy myself today, you wouldnt know or care. If you are going to destroy yourself do it in your honor. Not anyone elses. Maybe if I thought you cared I would be more inclined to destroy myself in your honor.
Ever despise someone so much you’re willing to commit the murder of self right in front of them… I used to say you can only hate someone you love so hate does not apply here. One may be feeling feelings undescribable, far from hate. These feelings affect self directly, that’s how soul deep the wounds are.
See the thing is one cannot lose […]
The feeling of being abandoned I know all too well. I know it like the back of my hand. Love hurts, being lied to is expected.. but being and feeling as if ur abandoned completely fucking sucks. Sometimes I feel like a dog who’s master has gone away and as a dog I patiently await the return of my master to no avail. Sometimes I still shed a few tears from the horrors of my life. I am matured far beyond my age in the aspect of trials and tribulations I have endured thus far. I can’t say I have endured all the conflicts which […]
THERE’S SOMETHING ABOUT THIS PLANET I LIVE ON AND THE WORLD WE LIVE IN…..
I played a few times….
No biggie….
 I was a stikler on even numbers, so I decided to break that OCD trait.
 That was my purpose of playing that russian game.
 It was not the cause.
Sometimes I wonder if there truly is a plan for my life….
Sometimes I wonder if it would be wrong to continuosly test this theory…
 sometimes…
(Ppl will read this as though it is a poem.. it is not. I centered the shit)(Ppl dont need to read my page, I’m no faker.) But if one needs inspiration… be my guest.. […]
My days don’t do anything but get harder n harder.
I’m not sure if the universe is at fault or I am.
I just know the tangible feeling of hate all to well. Its sooo lovely. Kind of like an aphrodisiac.
I just know for years I have been tasting the salty dissatisfaction of my own tears to the point where crying being extinct. Only to lead to crying feeling needed, strained, feeling, having feeling, much better than an orgasm. No one knows the severity.
Truth is this is jus an outlet. I need my input… The correct input. Put me to sleep n leave forever ion care. Just put me to sleep.