I still haven’t made up my mind. I’m still scared and still very sad. I’m leaving tomorrow. If I don’t come back, I just wanted to thank those who talked to me. I hope that all of you find what you’re looking for. Wish me luck, no matter which choice I make. Goodbye. 🙂
Broken silence,
Screams of defiance,
screaming again
Crowded inside,
my brain is purged
Of Feeling and Heart,
Submerged
Derailed, defiled, and fragmented
Mistaken as demented,
instead of tormented
Missing pieces,
missing links
Jailed,
I’m frail
in this thinking
Jailed,
I’ve failed
The walls are shrinking.
Can’t run away,
Can’t run towards.
Stuck in silence.
Broken silence.
This guy says that he’s liked me since high school, but all he ever wants to talk about is sex… nothing else, just sex and how he thinks he’s ugly. He talks to me like I’m a whore. I’m sorry but I require a lot more respect than that. We’re supposed to be “friends” but he deleted me from xbox live after I weighlayed him with my what-for cause I’m finally not putting up with shit anymore. He’s made no effort to want to hang out- I guess he just wants to talk to me like that over the xbox and nothing more. We live […]
Mirror Mirror,
Who am I?
To make the unborn angels cry,
I’ll fight the demons,
My war inside.
Cut them down to size.
Ring around the rosies,
A pocket full of lead,
Sprinkle on them ashes,
Of unbaptized dead,
Falling out of nowhere,
Into someplace deep.
Shallow are our souls,
Unable to drink,
Drowning in the darkness,
There’s nowhere left to hide,
Running out of options,
Losing every fight,
Fear is taking over,
Clogging up my mind,
Drifting endless darkness,
Broken sands of time.
Cauterize the wound,
Still it never heals,
Cauterize the soul,
Feels the same as hell.
Abortion is legal, they have clinics where you can take the life of another… But how come when you want to take your own life, you can’t do it as humanely? Why can’t you pay a couple thousand dollars for nice comforting morphene overdose?
It’s legal to get paid to fuck a random person on camera in any and every position available, and you in turn and buy that and, well… you know the rest. But when it comes to standing on the side of the street and dishing it out, both contenders get their asses put in jail.
Is society fucked up or what? Who are […]
My world is sinking in
Ankle-deep
And skin, too thin.
Trapped in solitude,
Surrounded by multitudes,
Misunderstood
Left unprotected,
Left too corrected.
Caught in a dream world,
Not here, not there.
Nowhere.
Bullet in my head,
Swinging from a tree,
Buried six feet under,
Why won’t she die?
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Ripped and broken,
Torn a sunder,
With a heart like hers,
It’s a wonder.
Let her wander,
In the desert,
Through the mud,
There is no water,
Only sun..
Breaking chains,
Breaking free,
Still feel bound,
To every day.
Breaking hearts,
Broken mind,
Breaking promises,
Need to unwind.
Breaking faces with fists of iron,
And suffering the consequences
From whence they burn.
Time to sleep,
Time to die,
It’s better than this,
Unable to cry.
Foundering in my thoughts,
Left to think,
It’s a crime,
To plot to murder yourself
For less than the dime
You found in your wallet,
Hidden in […]
A stranger hides behind my face,
Someone which no one sees.
A broken soul,
imprisoned by remorse,
longing to be set free.
A stranger walks on by your home,
unnoticed by your eye,
You think its me, when it’s not,
My faces’ clever lie,
Chained to darkness,
but not by choice,
Punishment befitting my sins,
Regret and bitter judgement,
ever closing in.
It steals my name,
It wears my clothes,
this stranger,
that everyone knows.
I’ve wanted to do this for so long. I know that there are some people out there who genuinely care for me, but most don’t. I live in a small minded world full of shallow people. I don’t want to be part of it. In six days I leave on a trip that is supposed to last four days. What everyone doesn’t know: I’m not coming back. I hope I can go through with it. I’ve been planning it for two months. I am tired of living and seeing all of these happy faces. I have tried to reach out… make human contact… something, anything. […]