My life is such a mess right now. I don’t think it has ever been wors than this.
I have never really had any friends and I’ve always been the middle kid who didn’t got any attention, but it had never botherd me as much before. I was fine with just being on my own. I mean i would have liked to have friends but I was okay with it. But I’m almost 20 and I still have no one. I feel so Fucking lonely and I feel this dark hole in side of me which I can’t seem to fill. When I was younger and […]
I have finally decided that this is gonna be the year I’m gonna kill myself. I don’t know when or how yet but I still got some time to figure it out.
A few days ago I was talking to this guy. And he asked me a question that should be that hard to answer. ” when was the last time you were happy?” But it was! It one question I had no answer to. I can not remember the last time I was happy. Because for as long I can remember I have never felt true happiness. And that really hit me hard. In my 18 year of living I have never felt it, and I will never know what it feels like to have that.
Isn’t it funny how people say they love you, but thet hurt you anyway.
Isn’t is funny how they say they will stay by your side, but leave you anyway.
Isn’t it funny how they make you feel hope again, just to crush it all over again.
Isn’t it funny how I fall for it every single time.
Isn’t it funny.
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