I can never catch a break. My life screwed up long before I was able to walk. When I was 6, 8-9 I was sexually abused. Idk why I’m putting that out there. No one gives a fuck. People say get over it. Trust me, I would if I could. Every moment of my life I experience the whole thing over again. All I really want is some sympathy, someone who could listen and understand me. But even that’s too hard to ask for. Sill I sit here and wish for death to consume me. When will this be over? When will this pain end […]
Normally when I have a flashback or nightmare I write about it in my journal. Today I decided to post about it on here just so that I don’t have to keep this mess hidden inside me. This is hard for me to write about so I’m sorry if it doesn’t make too much sense.
I don’t usually have good sleeps, some nights I don’t sleep at all. I’m terrified of the dark in fear of my abusers getting me. Last night I dozed off, I didn’t fall asleep, just went into a trance to try to calm myself. Around 10am this morning I was triggered when I […]