I took a nap and had a scary dream. I was in New York City and it was 9/11 , 2001 and I was standing at the bottom and just started running away because I saw the trade center start to come down and I just saw everyone scream and running with me and sirens every where .Holy shit it was so scary. I’m feeling wierd right now because it really makes me angry that like thousands of people died . All these terrorist attacks even today are like out of control. Isis in Paris … Apparently they are in my state Virginia targeting at […]
I’m scared . I’m in a happy state right now . I have been for a week or so . But I know that in about a couple weeks or a month I will go back to being really depressed . I know it will get worse . It does every time . My brain is so weird .
For anyone who has manic depression like I do… Or bipolar you know is a complete mess . Well depression is a huge mess honestly . Love this song. Makes me wish I lived back in the days to see him.
I’m at a bar right now eating some good ass bar food listening to fleet wood Mac and in this moment I just realized I am happy . This food is so good and I’m content . Today was good for no reason . I’m happy.
Just wanted to share another one of my favorite songs before I go to bed. I hope you all have a good sleep (if it’s night time where you are) , and good morning to all and I hope you have a good day .
i encourage all to watch when you have the chance .
I really feel the need to talk about this. I’m in tears right now because I’ve just realized a lot .
This world has fallen apart, and it’s getting worse…
I think humans have lost what life is really meant to be.
What have we done to ourselves ?
lemme emphasize better:
So since I was born I was taught that I needed to be smart , so I could get a good job one day to make lots of money , so I could have kids and feed them, then some day I would die .
everything revolves around economy . All we do is work work work! It’s one […]
Today was actually great.
im feeling low right now but other than that I’m doing good today .
and it was so beautiful outside , and I got to see my love.
ive decided to find something I’m good at, or at least find a hobby .
i love jewelry, and stones, so I’m gonna teach myself how to metalsmith . It’s gonna take time and money, but doesn’t everything ?
Ive never had a hobby , or even if I did it was only for a short while . Instead of laying in bed every second of the day, I’m going to find something I love to do.
I really […]
One of my favorite songs . Has good meaning . All of this bands songs are good . I love that you guys post songs you love . All music is great . I wanted to share this with you all.
I just want to talk about someone who means a lot to me.
We met at a concert at the beach on Labor Day weekend and like instantly knew meeting him was for a good reason .
ive only known him for a couple of months but in that short time weve became really close.
He takes me to do fun things & he’s so beautifully musically talented. He plays the guitar. I love seeing the passion in this eyes when he plays .
i love him and the person he is . I’ve always wanted someone like him in my life .
He helps me . He wants to […]
I just wanna take a poll and see how old all of you guys are on here . I feel like from what I read a lot of you seem to be older than I . So how old are all of you ?
Last night I got so incredibly drunk.
I was so drunk. I haven’t gotten like that in a while .
i still feel the aftermath now . And I’m going to work I feel like absolute shit .
but last night I was driving home an I wanted to go 100 mph and crash my car into something . I was so sad.
i get so angry and confused and sad.
im going crazy. I’m so tired
I feel like I don’t really feel anything anymore .
i used to be sad a lot and cry but now I feel nothing .
i don’t really feel excitement, happiness, sadness.
nothing.
i kind of do not care anymore .
I feel worthless and pointless.
(Forgot to post this earlier , saved it as a draft)
Today is like every other day .
i go to class at 7 am get out at 2pm and now I’m at work waiting to clock in.
But today I woke up feeling a little better .
theres no reason why either .
i think it’s because it’s a beautiful day out
I live by the beach and it should be cold right now because winter is almost here but it’s a nice warm day and the sun is out .
it was raining for days and I think it made me sad .
I’m sitting here at work looking out the […]
I’ve been working for 6 hours . And my feet are killing me. But I feel like work is the only thing that occupies my mind .
I don’t think about anything else when I’m working . But I feel like I work so much, I don’t enjoy life . It’s a one one situation. Either work and hate life and not have any enjoyment, or don’t work and sit at home in my bed and sulk . They both kind of suck. I also feel a lot sympathy for people who work for a shitty ass amount of money and try to live off […]
I always feel like I think a lot differently than most people. I always think philosophically about everything I do . It drives me crazy.
I really think that is one reason why I’m depressed. I’m always wanting to find a reason that humans are alive. I’m a nihilistic person I’m not religious or anything, but I think I need something like that in my life.
I always feel like there is something missing .
Ive felt like this since I was like 11.
One day my dad told me my mom had a miscarriage with another child .. My twin. I survived though .
My twin was supposed to be identical. I feel like her being gone is why I feel like a part of me is missing. I don’t know what to do about this .
Shell never be back. So I feel like there isn’t a solution to not feeling this emptiness inside me .
Even when I find someone I really care about or love , they even do not fill up […]
it’s never ending .
I feel my self getting worse and worse every day.
I woke up sort of feeling good today . I wanted to kill my self this weekend but I didn’t. I feel selfish for wanting to give up my life , but I don’t know how to turn the pain off.
I went to my dental a class today and I feel like I’ve lost interest . I loose interest in everything. I’m not good at anything and I don’t really mean much to anyone . I haven’t made a impact . Everyone eventually fades out of my life .
Everyday I wake up with […]
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