Feeling Good

Today was actually great.

im feeling low right now but other than that I’m doing good today .

and it was so beautiful outside , and I got to see my love.

ive decided to find something I’m good at, or at least find a hobby .

i love jewelry, and stones, so I’m gonna teach myself how to metalsmith . It’s gonna take time and money, but doesn’t everything ?

Ive never had a hobby , or even if I did it was only for a short while . Instead of laying in bed every second of the day, I’m going to find something I love to do.

I really feel like having a hobby would help my depression a lot . I want to have a passion for something.

i used to have passion for dental stuff . Im finishing a dental assisting course and I liked it at first but I’ve comed to realize I absolutely hate it and I really don’t want to be in the dental field anymore (thank god this course was free). I wanted to also go on and be a dental hygienist but I’m really not going to continue with that now.

I’m looking into going a a Edgar Cayce massage therapy school. I talked to a girl about it and she said she loved it and I’ve always wanted to help people and plus the school is right on the beach so it would be nice . I’m going to talk to the school people tomorrow .

i really want to find meaning in my life . I always feel worthless. Everything seems pointless , but I’m done being negative all the time . I really want to help my self, and find my purpose . Being depressed everyday is so tiring . I’m ready to move on .