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niki

Love music, philosophy, psychology, spirituality, science, humanity. A Free-Thinker & Truth-seeker. An observer of life & its intrigues, details. an INFP Type. a Free-Thinker & Truth-seeker. from Jakarta, Indonesia. My original music compositions: http://www.myspace.com/nikiwonotomusic http://soundcloud.com/niki-wonoto http://www.reverbnation.com/nikiwonoto http://www.youtube.com/nikiwonoto http://www.facebook.com/nikiwonotomusic

Indigo children (everybody please read)

by niki 8/20/2010

written by niki

This is so frustrating!
I’ve posted a long reply to the most recent thread-post by DMass here http://suicideproject.org/2010/08/my-feelings-are-starting-to-scare-me/
and somehow this ‘awaiting moderation‘ thing suddenly showed up again, and hence my post is still pending! (what is this ‘awaiting moderation’ thing anyway??..and I’ve also noticed that some of you said your posts are mysteriously gone??.. wow…this is really bad!..is there any way the Mods or Admin of this website to know or fix it?..)

I actually am composing a thread about putting the ‘banding together’ idea into real thing. and also to put together ALL excellent ideas & ‘alternative theories’ here.

But then I figure that due […]

8/20/2010 21 comments

All of us might be conspired all this time!!

by niki 8/17/2010

written by niki

To everybody in this website,

I don’t know if this is a serious coincidence,
or it’s perhaps really true that my ‘energy’ has just drawn upon *something* very important to read!
I don’t know….I mean, I used to NOT believe completely about the ‘Law of Attraction’ (LOA) and ‘The Secret’ stuff, that basically talks about how everything we see in this world physically is really just a result of our MIND, the Energy.

But lo and behold,
I know that thorought my life I’ve actually experienced quite many ‘strange’ things/events that seems ‘too good’ to just be a ‘mere coincidences’ (and I would bet that all these […]

8/17/2010 4 comments

Dear everybody, my fellow human beings, I think I’ve just got a sudden ‘revelation’ that I need to share about why we are so fucked up (please read!!)

by niki 8/16/2010

written by niki

Dear everybody,
my friends, a.k.a my fellow worthy and beloved human beings…

I want all of you here to please bare with me again for just about 5-10 minutes reading what I’ve found to be a sudden ‘eureka/revelation’ moment, thanks to actually vbenja’s thread that asks and ponder about “life” here http://suicideproject.org/2010/08/life-9/Â Â (it’s amazing of how ‘connected’ we can be, if we *choose* to, isn’t it?…)

And without getting too long, I will start right-away of what I’ve found,
hopefully what I’m going to share here will also ‘connect’ with all your hearts, your innermost souls…..that truly makes us what “humans“.

Here it goes :

Have you (we […]

8/16/2010 1 comment

To all of you who want to commit suicide, please read this first (my current summarizing conclusive thoughts after reading many posts up ’till now)

by niki 8/15/2010

written by niki

I will firstly try to be brief, and to-the-point with what I’m going to say here
(it’s not an easy thing, especially since I’m not that good of a writer, and secondly, English is not my first language ie: I am from Indonesia, and don’t ask why I can get to this website!…it’s strange, I know. internet is amazing).

It’s been a week that I’ve accidentally found this website, and ever since then following many posts & threads here. I will say this again & again: that I’ve found so many sincere, honest, and also the most heartfelt and even most eye-opening, mind-shifting posts/threads and ideas […]

8/15/2010 8 comments

Splinter’s case: is humanity and mankind hopeless?…

by niki 8/14/2010

written by niki

Some of the thoughts & responses have really reshaped my perspective on life, humanity, truth, and pain.
But unfortunately, I got so depressed again at how humanity & mankind in REALITY are progressing.
I just looked at the latest update regarding Splinter’s story, and my chest suddenly feels so heavy, that I can’t explain it by mere words. Even I have such a very HARD time to sit in front of computer, and write another reply/comment,..and especially fueled with some unfortunate ‘flame wars’ here showed me of how differing each person’s perspective is,..and it makes me eventually ponder, think, and ask this ultimate question, that […]

8/14/2010 19 comments

Isn’t posting & discussing in this website is a CHANGE already?

by niki 8/10/2010

written by niki

ThisÂ thought just suddenly occur to me.
For those of you who feel so much apathy and hopeless & pessimistic with how our current world is, and that you somehow feel hopeless & helpless to do anything about it, in other words, you feel that you just can’t “change the world”, the current fucked-up state/condition of the world we’re living in, no matter how much you’re aching for it,..butÂ honestly, has it ever occur to youÂ all that, even by posting and discussing in this website, has already created a CHANGE, even though it started only a little, and as an “idea”. But like the premise of the […]

8/10/2010 3 comments

I will dedicate a special gift for all of you here..(pls read)

by niki 8/10/2010

written by niki

There are two things I hope and I wish to say, and share,Â with all my deepest heart and sincerity to all of you here:

First, is that I’m a musician/composer,..
and after finding this website (about last week) accidentally, and then reading all the posts & comments, and mostly they’re just so strikingly similar, in such a honest, very sincere, real,..and even beautiful ways,..I have thus vow and swear today, that I will do my BEST, using my whatever utmost talents & passion in Music,…to create and compose a song, specially dedicated to all of you here.

Please give me around one month, at the very least, […]

8/10/2010 2 comments

there IS still Hope,..try to find it!

by niki 8/9/2010

written by niki

I am a Christian who has turned into an agnostic (and up to this day, I still honestly can’t find a single valid, reasonable reason to go back into ‘pure’ Christianity again,..though I’m always remain open-minded),
and from my own observations & experiences, & also seeing others, I can tell you this:

God, whatever It is, usually means HOPE.
People need hope, to keep living in this world. otherwise, he’ll find many & any kind of reason to end his/her life (because he/she feels NO hope anymore).
It’s that simple.

Now although I’m very much still questioning whether God is a “He (Him)” (and why does it […]

8/9/2010 4 comments

for those who wants 2012 (or end of world) to quickly come

by niki 8/9/2010

written by niki

I have to tell you that I feel you all who wants 2012 to really come true (no matter how much “B.S” you might think about this. we’re talking about FEELING here, not THINKING scientifically or whatever!).

Seriously, when Iâ€™m just fucking tired with whatâ€™s happening in this so-called â€œreal worldâ€ and all its â€˜uglyâ€™ hypocrisy, backstabbing, cheats, tricks, lies & more lies, pain, and how â€˜hopelessâ€™ humanity in general might seem,..it becomes VERY easy for me to hope, even PRAY for 2012 to really come,
for the comet or meteor to come and wipes like 3/4th of the Earth or whatever, to make these goddamn […]

8/9/2010 2 comments

Suicide? don’t die yet (sharing some glimpses of Hope)

by niki 8/4/2010

written by niki

I’ve just happened to come across this site, and seen all the replies here,
and I can honestly totally relate with everything you all said here.
In fact, these are all the main reasons, or my main feelings, that I’ve browsed around & eventually found this place!

I hate the fact that:
1. The world is mostly run by the riches & powerful, but not necessarily the most genuine kind of people, ‘cuz there’re often just way too many dirty politics & trickery for one honest, genuine person (or leader) to cope for! and it can just becomes way too much to handle!
although I’m not […]

8/4/2010 2 comments

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