yes i want to be anorexic. and yes i know it is a eating disorder, a disease, and a serious condition blah blah blah. but why not support those who want to starve and die that way? why support the ones who already have it when obviously most of them dont even want help and just die from it anyway? i am not asking for anyone to school me on what it is, how dangerous it is, and how i cant just “get it” because i want it. i do know that some disorders are brought on by certain things that happens in life whether […]
“In the 1980s a man with severe OCD shot himself in the head in an attempt to commit suicide. Instead of killing him, the bullet destroyed the part of his brain that was responsible for his OCD, and went on to become a straight-A college student five years later.”
-http://wtffunfact.com/post/49304696345/ocd
maybe i should try that to see if i’ll die or get cured from my suicidal thoughts and depression….and other mental problems i have. theres still that possibility that i could end up handicapped or maimed if i survived though
i want to die soooo bad, i think about it all the time now. i’ve been thinking about shooting myself in the head, i’ll put the gun in my mouth to make sure i dont survive. yep, thats how i want to die, i have officially chosen my exit plan. im not sure on when im going to do it, but its probably going to be soon. hopefully before anyone suspects me of being suicidal again. right now, everyone thinks im fine, that im doing great, but on the inside, im despising every single minute of living. i have gotten used to being suicidal for […]
just a few seconds ago i wrote that i dont know why i want to kill myself, well, i may have figured out a few things that may be making me feel so fucked up right now but im not going to go into conclusion just yet.
1) i hate myself
i think i should be much much thinner than i am right now. and it has nothing to do with me being fat…or a man. i dont care if a man doesnt finds me attractive as i am now, ive already learned to accept that. but i think if i was skinnier and bonier i would feel […]
sometimes, on certain days i feel like dying. and other times i feel like hurting myself. there is no between for me, its only that i will try not to have those horrible urges, its only that i wish i wouldnt have those horrible urges. but it seems like i cant help it no matter what, i either want to kill myself or at least harm myself everyday.
i thought i was getting better, but i clearly see that im not. ive been suicidal since ten and im no stranger to being hospitalized several times in my life. they say i have depression, they say i […]