Last year I was suicidal, but it went away. I’m not sure how. I don’t know what I did to make it go away, but I would like to know.  It’s coming back. Suicide is in my head again. Today I was home all day, in my bedroom. No one came inside, no one talked to me. I was crying, not because no one was talking to me, or wondered why I haven’t gone outside, I was crying because it hurts. What hurts? Everything hurts. Not anything physical. Emotional and mental pain. Lately, my parents have been cruel to me. They don’t hit me. I know I haven’t done anything to make them so […]
I have never been more serious in committing suicide. I want to move on. I want to get away from everything. I know I need help. I’m dying for help, literally. These past months have been bullshit for me. I’ve been depressed lately. I get frustrated easily, and wind up crying. Everytime. Even for the most silliest things. I have my own death planned out. I know how I’m going to do it, but honestly, I do not want to die. I just want the pain to stop, I want everything to stop, and if killing myself is the best way out for me, then […]