This sucks…

I have never been more serious in committing suicide. I want to move on. I want to get away from everything. I know I need help. I’m dying for help, literally. These past months have been bullshit for me. I’ve been depressed lately. I get frustrated easily, and wind up crying. Everytime. Even for the most silliest things. I have my own death planned out. I know how I’m going to do it, but honestly, I do not want to die. I just want the pain to stop, I want everything to stop, and if killing myself is the best way out for me, then count me in. I just want it to stop. I have already promised my close friends my prized possesions. My ps3, my guitar, my bike, etc. I told them that if anything were to happen to me, they can have what I offered. They thought it was weird of me, but very nice. I want people to think I’m nice. I find myself to be nice, only to those I love. I know that if I die, I will cause a great deal of pain to those close to me. I don’t want them to. I want them to know that I am happy with my decision. But I ask, someone, someone I don’t know, someone who can relate to my pain, someone that can save my life, I ask you, please help me. You can change my mind, I need someone to tell me its going to be okay. Please.