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Broken

by noir 8/19/2014

written by noir

I know what you are thinking, you are depresed cause you broke up.

Well yes i am, i started dating my couple on 13/4/2013, as you can guess for me it was quite hard to get a couple i had to decide if i needed a guy or a girl (that was actually realy realy hard to me cause in the inside i want to be loved and protected and cared, but in the outside im still male so i have to wear that mascarade of strongness and self security, so yeah for me it was a riddle, and still, anyway…) i met many people in […]

8/19/2014 6 comments

a sligth idea

by noir 8/11/2014

written by noir

Call it mercy, call it hope call it however you want to, but, i decided to become an organ donor before the end so the fact that i dont want this body nor this life can help others live and enjoy their lives to the best, also because of this resolution poison is no longer an alternative, just can’t seem to find the rigth way to get out, im collapsing, every second i crumble more and more, im traped in this barless pprision thats my body, i just cant get out, i want to sleep forever to never wake again, i must put an end […]

8/11/2014 1 comment

morning thougts

by noir 8/8/2014

written by noir

Why does it hurts so much to wake up?

Its because we were having a good dream, or just becuese we return back to life.

Today i woke up and drank the first pill even before breakfast, i headed to the kitchen asking myself if that living full of pills its living at all? Well i took some breakfast and returned ti bed, yes thats where i am, i want to cry and i want to scream, but shhhh, there is more people in the house we are not alone, and as the time go by i still look to the backyard, seeking, hoping to se something […]

8/8/2014 0 comment

i found it

by noir 8/4/2014

written by noir

I found the only thing stronger than grief, pain, and despair its name is what we call fear

On the 31 of july i woke up whit just one thougth on my head the thougth of dying i planned everything that very morning, yeah i even wrote here i just needed to talk myself off before well you know crossing over, im not a writer so im going to say the things as they happened and everything i felt on my self frustrated “try”

I phone called my gradfather in order to check if he was going to be in home (nobody suspect my condition, yeah im […]

8/4/2014 3 comments

i think this is goodbye

by noir 7/31/2014

written by noir

well, mhh, lets get this started, im 22 yo male and i have been trought depresion since i was 15 yeah this have been very hard 7 years, im not goig to give details about that because if you are here you may know how i feel rigth now, the fact is that im a transgender, so yes im kind of a girl in the body of a boy and i have knew since i was 12 that is like the age when you can ge treatment and stuff to “solve” that trouble so rigth now im in a dead end i can either become […]

7/31/2014 1 comment