Why does it hurts so much to wake up?
Its because we were having a good dream, or just becuese we return back to life.
Today i woke up and drank the first pill even before breakfast, i headed to the kitchen asking myself if that living full of pills its living at all? Well i took some breakfast and returned ti bed, yes thats where i am, i want to cry and i want to scream, but shhhh, there is more people in the house we are not alone, and as the time go by i still look to the backyard, seeking, hoping to se something that can make me happier, sadly there is nothing, nothing to cheer me up, i feel filled whit nothingness, i hate me all, i hate my personality, i hate my body, if there is god up there why is he letting us suffer like this, is he a sadist, have he forgoten us, or maybe he,s also depresed and dont want see this wolrd anymore?
Just posting this are my thougth as i crumble on my bed again