I am a 25 year old musician. I have never had a problem with depression until recently. I was happy, touring in a band, making money doing it. Then everything came crashing down. Now all I think about is everything that I have lost.
My best childhood friend dies unexpectedly, then my mother, then my friends turn their back on me.
I have lost all inspiration, I hate everything I do. My girlfriend who I live with are becoming more and more distant. I’m stuck 1,000 miles away from home with a shitty job, nothing to show for myself, and all I want to do is curl up in a ball and die alone.
I have nobody who I feel like I can talk to and I try to find any way I can to escape reality.
I have no idea what to do anymore and recently I have been having more and more suicidal thoughts.
I have never felt like this before.