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Am I Really Going To Try Or Not?

by NotQuiteSure 6/6/2015

written by NotQuiteSure

I’m not sure where I am within my own mind.

There are the empty days where everything washes over me, I don’t feel particularly happy or particularly sad just ‘there’. The okay days where I feel active n life. And then there are bad days where I find myself dwelling in things long ago past, where I end up on websites such as these or thinking about how I would go about doing it.

All hypothetical of course. I think about methods ‘hypothetical’. Telling myself that I’d never have the courage to do it.

But, recently I wrote my ‘hypothetical’ notes to the people I love. Does that […]

6/6/2015 0 comment

I Can’t Get The Words Out

by NotQuiteSure 6/3/2015

written by NotQuiteSure

I tried to tell this teacher. I’m trying to get across that its not exams that are the problem. Its not me feeling ‘low’. I just don’t want to be here, not at school, I mean on Earth. How can she understand this? How do I tell her that although I like talking about how I’m feeling when I get home I feel guilty and selfish? As soon as I get home I feel pitied and angry at her and myself. What’s Happening?

You know all hope is lost when that one person you talked to doesn’t help any more. Doesn’t get it any more.

Please stop […]

6/3/2015 1 comment

To Kill Oneself or To Not Kill Oneself?

by NotQuiteSure 6/2/2015

written by NotQuiteSure

To kill oneself or to not kill oneself? That is one hell of a question.

I’m stuck in the middle my own indecisiveness. On one hand I don’t want to hurt those I think I love but at the same time I don’t know if I can continue. I just have this empty feeling all the time. I constantly doubt those I know ‘love’ me. Everything is just so tiring.

I’m scared I won’t succeed then have to face the consequences.

Maybe I want someone to ask me directly. Then I could tell them but I know they won’t do […]

6/2/2015 3 comments