I don’t really understand why I started feeling this way. I feel distant even from the people that are closest to me. Sometimes I can be happy. I can feel good. Then I go back, and I realize that I have only been pushing these thoughts to the side. I want to die, but I won’t. I can’t let myself give up on life. I just want to stop planning out how I am going to die in my head. I want to stop having to push back these thoughts, and gulping back my tears. I want to stop looking over the ledge and thinking […]