In junior high and grade school I had a fantastic group of friends. I knew many people and wasn’t shy at all. My freshman year was when things started to change. In retrospect it doesn’t seem like I changed; it’s like everyone else was changing around me and I was helpless to do anything about it. Friends I had known for years started distancing themselves from me, and not knowing what else to do, I became a loner. My sophomore through senior years were spent by myself. I never went anywhere on weekends, I never did anything in my […]
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notreal
I made a list of reasons for killing myself and reasons against. I have about 30 for and 1 against, and the 1 against is pretty inconsequential. If this is a cry for anything, it’s a cry for someone to understand me. It’s like I’m the only outcast in the world, and I have this energy about me that repels others. I’ve been drinking a lot lately, and when I go, it will be because the pain inside of me has gotten so horrible that I’d have to convince myself not to kill myself, not the other way around. I’m […]