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Masquerade

by Ntennis37 1/8/2015

written by Ntennis37

I don’t think there can be many feelings as bad as living in an absolute hell. But I’m not sure what’s hell about it. Living with people I love but – think I got it.

Living a miserable life, so bad that all my effort and will power goes into making me look slightly gloomy at the best of times. My head pounds and my bones ache from the pressure.

I value the people around me more than anything – but sometimes I don’t think they even care about me – what’s behind the façade.

The only time I can have a decent conversation with one of my […]

1/8/2015 0 comment

I’m Tired

by Ntennis37 12/15/2014

written by Ntennis37

I think the time to go is getting closer.

I can feel my will to do… anything… slipping out of me, draining away like water.

I used to be energetic but now I’m becoming more and more lethargic.

There just doesn’t seem to be anything worthwhile any more, nothing I can bring myself to do, even people who I would call my friends – It seems as if I can only see them as hollow shells. I don’t think I have any true friends any more.

Very few people can feel the same way I do now, it’s as if I’ve snapped my link with the rest of the […]

12/15/2014 3 comments

I Don’t Know

by Ntennis37 12/9/2014

written by Ntennis37

I honestly don’t know why I’m writing this… I can’t say that I want to commit suicide… at least not right now. I’m meant to be doing coursework right now so I’ll probably finish that then contemplate taking my own life.

I have a great life. I study, I have a family and friends, but at the same time I’m not good at anything that I study in my course, I loathe and despise the members of my family no matter what they do I can feel a deep poisonous hatred for them. And… I’m not sure if I actually friends… I have people I talk […]

12/9/2014 5 comments