It’s funny actually. How life plays out slowly. And sometimes painfully. I guess I have no explainable reason I want to commit suicide. There are reasons. Believe me there. Very deep reasons. I have thought long and hard about this. And I have made up my mind. That I am taking my life. I am not writing this in sought for. Help one would say.. Buy more in the form of. The finale will redemption. I have no one to give anything to so it’s very bothering.
I live in Johannesburg, South Africa. I am very young. Very young indeed. I have a very active […]
Well the voices are bothering me again. I wonder what they want….I guess this means back to rehab I go..you know whats over rated people…. life…. ey but we live it dont we. And we gotto live it. Thats the problem. Its in a way kinda compulsory… even after death theyll keepp at you. Heh… look at that. I babling again
Hi again all you humans. Its been awil since I last posted. But today I randomly felt like I should… well what ive decided on saying is this… this is my messege of hope to every one out there. Don give up. Sometimes things might take awil to get better or change. They might never change. But we have to keep fighting. Oblivion is inevitable people. Early or late it happens… we cant change that… there are many reasons a person could feel these ways. We feel… lose of a loved one. Child hood abuse. bullies. Hating yourself. Negetivity. Etc. Milions of reasons. I might […]
for every. dot. a sin. was made. speaking lies. and never saying. if u can see it. then feel my pain. . . .
there are 11 dots
11 sins. 11 miatakes 11 pepl 11 mismakes. 11 true senses 11 fates. 11 things u should not say 11 tears 11 drops 11 loved ounce and 11 enemys 11 kind words that lift ur soul and 11 seconds for it to all disapear
Well ive been here almost a month. I found this sight to realy help me.
But yea here is my full introduction.
Hi my name is julien nicholas vetter. Im a 15 year old boy I live in south africa. Johannesburg, Â guateng. im a musician and play almost all instruments.
I cut myself very often. I am a honors in math, science, home economic, Â and creative writing (poetry).
And ive found no reason any more to continue.
Ive attempted suicid many times. And I ran away from home many more times.
Im sick of life. I often think life made as a si k joke when it got bored. And said […]
today was different. who would have thought itd end like this.
i got blamed for something at school now im expelled ( i had nothing to do with it ). go home to see that we were robed. and now sitting on top of a bridge at the moment guess il see what happenes at the end of the day.
a few weeks ago. a new girl joined my school.
dang that girl. the only person i know that can give you the evil eye. ( without actualy giving you the evil eye) and when she gives you the evil eye. you feel like your being sent to hell ( mind the language).
but yet i still find myself atracted to her.
she hates my guts. 😀 she hates my with a pasion :-D. but still haha
you get what i mean RIGHT im not going crazy AM I? IF I AM. then yea im crazy lol
if you were my friend
you would have been there when i needed you
if you were my friend
you wouldnt have stolen from me
if you were my friend
you wouldnt have played with my emotians
if you were my friend
you wouldnt have stolen her from me
if you were my friend you wouldnt have tried to stab me.
if you were my friend
i wouldnt be writing this
thats why your not my friend any more
isnt there someone you wish was here with you. well yea everyone does for me it an old friend of myne her name is kyrie. but she moved to america. havnt seen her since. but we still talk alote over skype. not the same as her being here. if you relate to this coment. if you wanttto share you story of someone u miss coment. and if you want to talk about it easy coment
im a 15 year old boy. yea before i continue i know im young for this kind of stuff. but to the point i hate my life. i always put asid my need to help someone else and get nothing for that. ive watched my best friends die right infront of my eyes. and i still blame myself of there deaths. i lost the love of my life. to my friend… and i just feel like.nobody cares. i hate my life. ive run away from home 8 times. longest ive been.gone is near a year. and ive ettempted suicid. many. many times. i just feel […]