I thought about it a thousand times and did it once. It was a few years ago. The reason you ask? loneliness. I never told anyone what happened that night, not even my therapist. It DOES sound and feel stupid: I realized I like someone, after all those years of loneliness now there’s actually someone I like. But there was also a problem, what if, that person did not want me? now the pain would double up as if it wasn’t enough already. or the alternative, I told myself imagine you’re in a relationship but would that end every pain of yours? of course not, […]