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PandaMonkey0207

Im 18 years old. Been depressed for 2 years. im bipolar. I overthink things. I'm a cutter.

Happy

by PandaMonkey0207 11/22/2015

written by PandaMonkey0207

I’m finally happy with my life…

Leaving a perfectly good and healthy relationship because my family didn’t like him. I listen to them. I listen to all the lies they put in my head. It wasn’t him who made me depressed and started to cut. It was the build up of all the pressure and stress my own family put on me. Him and I were together for 2 years, yes we argued but what we had was one of a kind. I could never find anything like it. When I left I tried to find love in other men but they always hurt me […]

11/22/2015 4 comments

Stressed

by PandaMonkey0207 10/21/2015

written by PandaMonkey0207

When my family tells me to stand up for myself and when I do they tell me that I’m not choosing the right path. I swear these people can’t make up their mind. It’s my life and my choices. I am the one who has to live with them. I’m 18 years old and in college for heaven sakes -_- . I can make my own choices and do what the hell I feel like. Jesus. I’m so ready to get out of this fucking house. They think I won’t leave. Smh. The stress I’m in I’ll pack my shit and leave tonight..
I don’t […]

10/21/2015 1 comment

I give up

by PandaMonkey0207 10/20/2015

written by PandaMonkey0207

I’m sick and tired of fighting for something that’s never going to happen. My body can’t take it anymore. Ughhh.
My sister tells me she is scared that I’m going to kill my self. Maybe I should. Then my family doesn’t have to worry about me anymore.

10/20/2015 3 comments

Her Last Word

by PandaMonkey0207 10/19/2015

written by PandaMonkey0207

“Her Last Words”
By:
COURTNEY PARKER

Just an average girl
She always wore a smile
She was cheerful and happy for a short while
Now she’s older, things are getting colder
Life’s not what she though, she wishes someone had told her
She told you she was down, you let it slip by
So from then on she kept it on the inside
She told herself she was alright
But she was telling white lies
Can’t you tell? Look at her dull eyes
Tried to stop herself from crying almost every night
But she knew there was no […]

10/19/2015 1 comment

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by PandaMonkey0207 10/19/2015

written by PandaMonkey0207

All I ever wanted was to die. Those sleepless night I cried. As I watched my blood run down my wrist. He was the only one who made me happy. I pushed him away because of the pain. Now I’m watching form afar. Another girl in his arms. He smiles as he looks at her and I’m wishing it was me. My heart shattered. I’m all alone. I cut to stop the pain. I do it because I don’t want to feel. He always had my heart. I tried to love another but all I could do was think of him. My lover. The man […]

10/19/2015 1 comment