I tried for the last time and, I don’t really know how, I’m still here.
I dare to say I’m glad I’m still here.
Please, don’t listen to the voice in your head who only suggest you to suicide. I understood I wanted to die to escape, not to suffer anymore, to avoid the pain I felt and I feel.
But this is life. A fuckin’ painful life. Day by day I only receive bad news, bad things happen to me, maybe I’m gonna develop a cancer inside my chest.
The truth is, if this is the life I’m gonna live, I’ll live until the very end. With hope, yes, with hope someday everything bad will come to and end. One day or another I’ll definitely die and I’ll feel nothing anymore.
I just wanted to thank my beloved friend, who was with me since the beginning and, I hope, will be with me until the end. I’d be very happy if only I could have the certainty you will be there, for me, tomorrow and the day after… it is the last thing I wish for.
Maybe, someday, I’ll be a star in somebody’s else sky… but now let me shine for you, and for you only.