Yesterday I was arrested on the GG bridge for a suicide attempt. I was there. I had it. The motivation was there. My leg started to climb up over the railing. Then I saw the police coming. Now this was REALLY it. I could either just use my other leg and take the leap, or go back the other way and let the cops take me into custody. Unfortunately, I’m still here which means I succumbed to the arms of two policeman.
To those who haven’t seen it, the view is incredible. Such a serene feeling knowing that you could take your life right then and there. Just looking down and the water looks so peaceful. It’s magical. Equvilent to having a loaded M 16 in your hands alone in a locked room. You have the power. I hate my life. Everyday I wish it was over and done with. I have nothing and I hate this life. At 34, still alive. Horrible. I WANT NOTHING MORE THAN TO DIE.