I know I’m not the only one with problems. I know I have it good, comparatively. I know that I should be perfectly okay. But I’m not. I know, logically, that I should feel something, but I do not. I can only say I’m sorry for my pain, or rather, lack thereof. They say they love me, I think that is stupid. I’m not good enough for anyone. I know that this should hurt, should make me sad, but it’s like I’m a black hole, nothing there, the epitome of absence. I cant fix it without hurting them. But I hurt them by not fixing it…
I’m not sure what to do. I dont want to keep living, but I have people who love me…. my girlfriend for example. We first got together when she herself was going to kill herself. But she’s better and I’m…. not. And I dont even have a bad life. I cant talk to anyone about it without them freaking out, so here I am. I actually found this looking up how to write a suicide letter….