PhantomCitizen43

I did these 2 works recently.   They are very different from most of the other stuff I have done.

I am just continuing on with the art as therapy.

thought I would post something.

I wish everybody well.

On goes the daily struggle for me.

I call the top one. Breaking apart

the bottom one i don’t have an official name for but I am calling it > Meditation Prayer <  for the moment

I had a dream that I was having a discussion with my older brother and telling him > that my life is so hard that if most people would have to live my life that they would just Kill Themselves within 3 months.    Then I told him that I just wanted to die.

SO what do you think this is.  I am even suicidal in my dreams.   I wonder if life is trying to tell me something.   Maybe life is trying to tell me that I have a legitimate reason for being suicidal and that maybe I should go do it.

who knows.   […]

I did this drawing like 2 weeks ago.   Just got around to colorizing it.

and I have 2 versions that I like of it.

let me know which one you like

If you dont like either of them then just say

THEY BOTH SUCK!!! LOL

http://www.nbcbayarea.com/news/local/Berkeley-Doctor-to-Start-End-of-Life-Practice-as-State-Law-Takes-Effect-382164671.html

Read that article there.  A doctor in California is starting a End-of-Life Practice and I think its a good thing.    I like to see any advancement towards the Right to die Movement.

I think people should have the right to die if they choose too…. and should be able to get assistance with that if they need so.

Thats just my take on it.

What would you say… and or how would you react if somebody you know asked you to help them acquire something they need to kill themselves with???   has this ever happened to you?

I think the older I get the less reasons I can find to want to live… and the more reasons I can find to justify suicide.  LOL

SO I am 44 years of age now.  I can only imagine that it will be just another few years I can take before I go OFT myself.    LOL

I hope I die by natural causes soon so… I wont actually have to go through with hanging myself.  lol

Well my last post I ranted.    Now I thought I would do something more positive.

Life is not easy all the time > but it can be good and I want to encourage people to do the best with what you have and to move forward in your life.

I wish the best for everybody

I did this artwork the other day and figured I would post it.

Its just something better then complaining.   LOL

I am convinced that life is just a continuous battle.  If its not one issue you have to deal with then its another.   Often its multiple issues we have to deal with and sometimes it seems at times like there is no remedy for them and to go on with life is really really hard.  When I was a child i couldn’t understand why some people kill themselves.  Now after 44 years of living> I can say YES I understand now.

When I was about 22 years of age I met this elderly lady that always would say. “Life is A Battleground and it Never […]

Suicide is like this 2 edged sword thing.  Whenever I hear that a person died by suicide its like this for me.    On one hand you pretty much know that their suffering in this word is over and perhaps maybe they are free from that now.   On the other hand whenever I hear that a person committed suicide its also a sad thing because you know that they did it because their life really sucked and they wanted out.  So you have to wonder for how long did their misery go on and what level was it at before they ended it.   […]

I did this drawing about a week ago.   It was done on an 18×24 inches sheet of paper with a pen and a sharpie.

I  eventually photographed it and loaded it to my computer and then used a digital paint program to colorize it.

I like it because its different from all the other stuff I have done.  I thought I would post it while I am having my morning coffee and dealing with a hangover from last night.  Lol.

I wish everybody the best.  Have a great day folks.

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