“Just push through it. It will get better. Wait this crisis out, it’ll all be okay. This is not permanent”. I appreciate the thought when I read responses like this on this site or elsewhere, but it isn’t consoling because its not entirely true. Change is inevitable, but it will not be “better”. My situations, circumstances and issues change constantly, but I struggle (too much) with all of them, always. Sorry to be vulgar, but in other words: sh*t always gets replaced by equally sh*tty sh*t. The people, places, and problems in life always change, but the general luster of life is constant. I’m not […]
i asked myself 1st thing this morning when i woke up. my “story” is not worth typing about – you already get it: it’s depressing. i’ve been suicidal for a few years now, but this will be my 1st real attempt. the “helium method” as i refer to it (no access to guns, i have plenty of pills but those have a TERRIBLE track record of successful suicides). i feel ready to go.
yet i have reservations. i think about my family.
i don’t love them, to me they are like strangers i just happen to know many things about, i do not feel connected or bonded […]