Life’s a *****. I know that, yet I still sat on my ass and hoped for change. Life’s a harsh mistress and shows no mercy; yet I recently learned I want to live. Watching the images of the tragedy in Japan makes me realize how lucky I am regardless of how shitty my life is now. I think I’m going to become an activist or journalist; it’s the only way to repay the kindness I’ve recieved here on SP is to persevere through obstacles, excel in life, and help others in need.
I always have to smile. Even though I have to live with the piece of shit I am forced to call my father. He used sexually and phsyically abuse me, yet I have to respect him. My mom thinks that I’m making all of this up. All of my closest friends are dead due to drugs or violence. The world is filled with so much blind, ignorant hate. I get preached by the church to be accepting while they damn me for being bisexual. I spend time studying and getting good grades, but for what? Everything is pointless..
Okay, so I know everybody has bad days and we’re supposed to persevere and all that jazz, but I honestly don’t feel like putting any effort into living anymore. Everyone around is fake and shallow; every time I try to talk to my “friends” about something that isn’t happy they just end up ignoring me and trying to change the subject. They also talk about people who cut themselves (which I have done for years), saying they should just get it over with already. they have no fucking idea how tempted I am…
Unfortunately, all my attempts have been stopped by people who “care” (which […]