I would smile to friends and family for the longest time. I would smile like nothing was wrong to keep people away from asking whats wrong. I kept that smile up for the people who thought my life was perfect. Nobody knew the pain N suffering I had to go through to get to where I am now. I’ve walked a thin line from never getting caught to hey what happens if I get caught. During that time I was N still am suffering from PTSD, anxiety, panic attacks, and mood disorder. I watched a family member do things to me that I should […]
At the age of 17 after signing paper to come to kicking horse job corps in Montana. I had a break down. remember that I have PTSD, I had a psychotic break down. this is honestly that hardest part of my life Its hard for me to tell people. but here it goes. I had a psychotic break down I was homicidal and suicidal. I showed up at my moms not(best friends mom and his house) house. She wasn’t feeling good. she was feeling sick that day. She looked at me and asked if I was okay. all I could manage was a head shake saying no. […]
she saved my life
I moved back to Colorado in a small town named Eaton. I went through a lot. I was the new kid in town. We moved there after my first love Emily committed suicide, Because an abuse family(drugs, alcohol abuse family). I got a letter from her sister saying she committed suicide on March 31st  2009. It just made the move back to Colorado harder. I tried committing suicide on June 20th 20o9 because we moved back to Colorado […]
I went through a lot to get where I am now. I went through hell to get to where I am now.
My story begins in Westminster Colorado. I was born in Westminster Colorado, I lived there till my 5th birthday. Then I moved to west Yellowstone Montana. After my 6th birthday I went to California to visit my cousins and grandparents where my story of depression and abuse and rape began. I was playing cops and robbers in the dark with my three cousin. My older cousin was a cop and caught me as the game was being played, He took me into the jail(a room). He asked me […]