I’m homosexual and don’t want to have to deal with spending a lifetime hiding and lying. Pretending I’m okay when I’m not. My parents… I don’t think they’ll ever understand me and I’m certain I would bring shame to them. I feel like the whole world will hate me. I”m a burden to my parents and to this world in which I don’t belong. I feel there’s no reason to live, only despair. The ONLY time I’m happy is asleep. I want to die painlessly, but I won’t describe here how, because I think that’s against the rules. To feel hated by so many for […]
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Resistanceisfutile
I don’t mean to sound whiny, but I hate living on this planet. I want to disappear and never come back because I wasn’t meant to be here. I fantasize about suicide often, and recently have had an urge to begin planning. I’m homosexual. I’ve realized that’s never going to change. I’ve known since I was 7. So here I am, 17 years old and realize now that I’ll have to spend the rest of my life hiding and lying to the people I love about who I am, and never be accepted or feel like I belong in this world because of my sexuality. […]