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ackerman

just passing by

my version of ‘perfect two’ by auburn for my waifu 4 laifu

by ackerman 6/23/2015

written by ackerman

you can be the binder to my messy folder
you can be the hand rested on my shoulder
you can be the gang member and I’ll be your handgun
you can be the punchline and I’ll be the lame pun
you can be the shoes and I’ll be the dance floor
you can be the dubstep I can’t take anymore.

cuz you’re the sugar to my cake
you’re the salt to my ocean
you’re the colors to my paint
and you’re the money to my fortune

you can be the song and I’ll be the lyrics
you can be the coke and I’ll be your quick fix

6/23/2015 2 comments

Borderline Personality Disorder Story

by ackerman 5/13/2015

written by ackerman

I wrote a story based on the opinions of someone I know, not all opinions expressed are ones I identify with.

“Borderline isn’t abnormal in itself, it’s the manifestation of the human condition under deleterious circumstances. Everyone has abandonment issues, everyone reacts angrily – not always externally angry and sometimes not even consciously angry – to rejection and it isn’t abnormal in itself. Borderline is the aggregation of multiple mental illnesses all into one, I don’t even understand why – they don’t even have a tangible treatment for it so what’s the point in the diagnoses?

“Borderline is a myriad of symptoms of various real mental illnesses, […]

5/13/2015 1 comment

I wish I could believe in God

by ackerman 5/4/2015

written by ackerman

I wish I could believe in God. I wish I could convince myself that there was some omniscient, all loving being with the power to guide me and influence my circumstances for the better. I wish I could believe that there was a perennial force looking out for me and giving ubiquitous company. I wish I could believe that everything concludes with justice, that those who commit significant transgressions receive a punishment proportional to their crime. I wish I could believe that there is meaning in suffering, that the pain endured produced a reward to make it worth it.

I wish I could believe that life […]

5/4/2015 7 comments

written for my waifu 4 laifu

by ackerman 5/1/2015

written by ackerman

I’ll follow the trace of your breath’s exhale
down a river of gold with a shattered glass sail
I’ll visit lands of sapphires and lustrous ebony
to find the taste of ambrosia equal to your beauty

I’ll write poems with glass, in words melted with sun
and sing ballads of skies for the most beautiful one
your tears are the straw I will spin into stars
to become iridescent and celestial martyrs

blessed by the presence of a prophesied king
I’ll put perennial wax on your magnificent wings
let me embellish your body with invaluable jewels
to demonstrate my undying love for you

you’re a shimmering blaze of […]

5/1/2015 2 comments

so fucking hideous

by ackerman 3/25/2015

written by ackerman

I’m usually more eloquent than shouting obscenities at the world, but fuck, no words can articulate the depth of the frustration and hopelessness I feel, swear words can only emphasize their significance. FUCK!!! I’ve suffered from Body Dysmorphic Disorder since I was 13 and it’s fucking killing me, it has ruined everything good in my life, my academic opportunities, my social relationships, the prospect of a romantic relationship, the chance of me achieving higher success in life, it’s all gone to shit because I fucking hate myself. Say the same things as everyone else says to me, I don’t fucking care I’ve heard it all […]

3/25/2015 5 comments

Something that bothers me

by ackerman 12/30/2014

written by ackerman

Philosophy has always been such a boring subject to me, boring in the sense that it’s endlessly redundant. Certain components of philosophy are interesting to discuss, but in the end there are no answers or even compromises people can make as it’s entirely subjective and based on little to no empirical evidence. In the end it’s a bunch of people asking “why?” until there isn’t even anything to discuss, the only thing you can do is go in an endless circle of pointless redundancy. Does free will exist? Does it matter? Regardless of any conclusion as to whether we have free will or not our actions will not […]

12/30/2014 25 comments

Best wishes

by ackerman 12/29/2014

written by ackerman

It’s important to acknowledge that every person’s justification for suicide is valid and should be respected, whether your suicidal tendencies are a product of an abusive environment, deprivation of vital needs (such as social needs, romantic needs or the lack of care and appreciation from others), or financial complications, physical health impediments and decline, or even if your boyfriend/girlfriend/partner has left you or you stubbed your toe and that’s thrown you over the edge, every reason is valid. Suicide is entirely subjective and is construed in a different way by each individual. Humans are innately logical creatures, the only deviation from this is decided by […]

12/29/2014 4 comments